8.17.2008

All or Nothing . . .

You make me breakfast in bed
When I'm mixed up in my head
You wake me with a kiss
I could get used to this
You think I look the best
When my hair is a mess
I can't believe you exist
I could get used to this
Because I know you're too good to be true
I must have done something good to meet you
'Cause you wrote my name across your hand
When I freak you understand
There is not a thing you miss
And I could get used to this
I'm feeling it comin' over me
With you it all comes naturally
Lost the reflex to resist
And I could get used to this
You love the songs I write
You like the movies I like
There must be some kind of twist
But I could get used to this
Because you listen to me when I'm depressed
It doesn't seem to make you like me less
'Cause you wrote my name across your hand
When I freak you understand
There is not a thing you miss
And I could get used to this
I'm feeling it comin' over me
With you it all comes naturally
Lost the reflex to resist
And I could get used to this
If there's a dark side to you I haven't seen it
Every good thing you do feels like you mean it . . .
- I Could Get Used To This, by The Veronica's


Jenn . . . You have a loving, growing relationship.. but you act like it's almost not real.. and there's not a lot of hope in it.... but I guess, considering your past...... maybe, that's just who you are right now. It makes me a little sad.
Dylon Rylee . . .
Thats a very accurate description... lol and im sorry it makes you sad. The thing is, I really do like him. And I could see this going somewhere. . . I really really want it to. He's great and cuddly, and he thinks its adorable that i love mokona and anime and i think his dorkyness is amazing. . . I'm just really scared im gonna do something to screw it up. And I know that Its not my fault the last couple relationships failed, but its like I dont believe that someone I like so much, could like me. But he does. And his ex scares me! lol like really, it was so awkward when I was cuddling him last night at eleven and she called, and he got all tense and upset with her, which is a good sign, but it was still just weird... And she keeps calling him and texting him and telling him she's moved on, and I can tell it bothers him that she keeps rubbing it in his face. I just dont wanna get attached to someone just to get hurt. And I just wish I could get up the courage to tell him all these things! But everytime I do, I cant get ahold of him..